A Slice Of Bread

Dear god, never have I ever imagined I want to meet you right away in middle of the night. I am happy to hear Ylang Ylang by FKJ playing on my laptop. Dear god can I ask you a question to show me the way and help me out like FKJ found his soul.  God, let me bothering you with my thoughts, let me suffer through every conditions that I deserved in this world. God I make a messy situations along the line. Let me gone through the surface and live something between the line.  What do I live in here, in this world?  Why do I still here? While makes someone disappointed and really falling down the line? I do not know what does he thinks right now about me, and what does he has inside his mind. I make every people that close with me run away from me. I decide too fast, I decide in rush, I decide in selfish, I decide in cruel, I decide in bias, I decide with only the "I" point of view. How dare I am too close to step upon your destiny?  Let me deliver something that he has to...

I come home and sit back to the bed that seems like says "Ah there you are!" a lot things happen for this past 3 months, sometimes is just bubbling on my head and I just can't help it. I speak to my friend the one that know myself better about my dreams. Virtually I never met him, just ocasionally I met in a small cafe talking about what we want in the future especially about education. Marriage? Marriage is not something that I am looking for right now. Is not my big deal in my 25, oh god why do I love this track so much. I play FKJ 10 years ago, feels like I am coming to my hometown and sit on my favorite desk in my cozy bedroom. I wish I can see FKJ concert again, I miss him a lot, I miss the vibes, the people around, all the track and everything. Back to reality, I'm staying in my small room here in Jakarta. Last year I earned so much, I have so much opportunity that takes me into something bigger. Thank you god, thank you for showing me that dreams are still aliv...