10 YEARS AGO

I come home and sit back to the bed that seems like says "Ah there you are!" a lot things happen for this past 3 months, sometimes is just bubbling on my head and I just can't help it. I speak to my friend the one that know myself better about my dreams. Virtually I never met him, just ocasionally I met in a small cafe talking about what we want in the future especially about education.

Marriage? Marriage is not something that I am looking for right now. Is not my big deal in my 25, oh god why do I love this track so much. I play FKJ 10 years ago, feels like I am coming to my hometown and sit on my favorite desk in my cozy bedroom. I wish I can see FKJ concert again, I miss him a lot, I miss the vibes, the people around, all the track and everything. Back to reality, I'm staying in my small room here in Jakarta. Last year I earned so much, I have so much opportunity that takes me into something bigger. Thank you god, thank you for showing me that dreams are still alive till today. 

His name is Agung my best buddy who helps me with the research and academic era, survive with his guidance on the final project. I am pretty sure he has a desire to become a nutrionist, a chef? or a baker? I don't know. He is so passionate for being a teacher. Agung is my best buddy uni, he is one of the people who gave me courage to take another step in life, brave to take a risk, and learn to fall again and again. From him I learned that education is a solid weapon for the future, for the better place and better life. 

Now talking about my life currently, I am just................. silent. I like myself a lot everyday, I fall in love with her everyday, how bright she is for herself, and how beautiful she is with her mind, I do reconnect with myself I feel I missed myself, the fact half of me is in another place. Well, I am reunited with the old Lulu, the one that enjoying herself so much, evaluate is something I'm afraid of but now? yeah she is doing journaling literally every single day and every single situation in her life. She can not believe that life takes a risk like this. 

Year goes by, I have the step that I keep after my bachelor degree. I keep silent with the journey, I do thinking "One day to become day one" 10 years ago I must be dreaming become a workaholic person, but glad that she is not. She is just an ordinary woman with big dreams, strong ambition, focus, and just keep going. Maintain small circle on her life, reading so many books, fulfill the list of her bucket travel list, walking in the morning and afternoon, visiting local market, writing a journal, watching a movie, buy new book every month, talking when she needs it, react when she needs it. 

Well, you just have to keep going like forrest gump, without asking too much, and worry too much, like Allah said if it's belongs to you it will comes to you. Keep the faith, keep the spirit, god show you the destination, but god doesn't show you how so please gain the power back and turn it into the best Niat for your beloved parents, friends, people you loved and loved you back, focus on it. 

You know what you want, let your dreams be your wings. 

The flag has red color, beautiful mountains, cheese, chocolate, franc.

Middle of 2025, shot the shoot. Montreux, Swiss.